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Kapua Iao 6/7/22 Kapua Iao 6/7/22

Behind the Issue: UpSpring (Yellow Arrow Journal, Vol. VII, No. 1)

By Rebecca Pelky

When the Editor-in-Chief of Yellow Arrow Publishing, Kapua Iao, first contacted me about possibly guest-editing Yellow Arrow Journal, Vol. VII, No. 1, UpSpring, available in the Yellow Arrow bookstore and from most online distributors, I was humbled and a little overwhelmed. It was right at the beginning of a new semester, and the issue would be released near the end of the same semester. Did I have time to give this the attention it deserved in between teaching and planning and that book chapter also due in May and that book I should be writing and all those meetings and emails? And yet. While I love my job teaching film and creative writing to STEM students, I’ve also been mostly without a writing community for the first time in years. I couldn’t resist this opportunity to feel like a part of a community again, and I’m so glad now that I agreed. Kapua has been wonderful to work with while keeping me on track to meet my deadlines, which I desperately needed! The rest of the staff and volunteers have been generous and thoughtful readers. Leading a workshop for Yellow Arrow called “Writing the Archive” also helped me feel connected again to some fantastic people and writers. I’m thankful for these opportunities and how they helped me grow in new ways.

I’m proud of what UpSpring has become, and I hope we’ve created something that the contributors will be proud of as well. Although editors certainly act as gatekeepers, there’s a way in which an issue of a literary journal grows beyond the choices we make, or maybe it’s better to say each new choice is informed by all the other choices that we’ve made in reading, and those that the contributors have made in writing and submitting. It reminds of these lines from Liane St. Laurent’s poem, “in which I die, become a bird-tree,” in which she writes, “I know a word the way a word knows / water, the way water finds its shape, / becomes what it wants.” At the end of the process of putting together a journal, when it works, it feels like water finding its shape, like the issue has become what it wanted to be.

The pieces in UpSpring vary widely in their interpretations of the theme, and it’s what I love most about them. No two contributors envision those moments of change and bloom in exactly the same way. They consider how we support each other through those moments or the ways that we survive them or celebrate them alone, as in Vanesha Pravin’s, “Olive Oil, Sumac & Harissa,” “Oh, Honey, / happily, you can survive: / Saturday night alone / again with the coyotes / yipping, the damn stove / knob still broken.” They offer insight on motherhood or all the upsprings that happen to girls in their formative years. They mediate on upsprings in metaphors of plants and dirt and roadkill and space. The word upspring implies joy, I think, new life, beginnings, and this issue is rightly filled with those. However, it’'s also true that upsprings emerge out of grief, illness, or trauma. And so we celebrate and commiserate, we encourage and support, we welcome these upsprings in all of their forms.

What I keep coming back to, in the end, are these last lines from Jillian Stacia’s poem, “Pruning”: “Just watch / the wild ways you’ll grow.” I think about those lines often, the way any great words stay with you—the way they settle themselves into your knowing. That’s also what it feels like to put together an issue of a literary journal, sort of. You can’t know exactly what it’s going to grow into, but after the process of reading hundreds of amazing submissions and narrowing and fitting and losing and gaining pieces, in the end, all you can say with awe is, “Wow, look at the wild ways you grew.”

Paperback and PDF versions are available from the Yellow Arrow bookstore. Discounts are also available (here) if you would like to purchase copies for friends and family (minimum purchase of five). You can also search for Yellow Arrow Journal on any e-book device or anywhere you purchase books, including Amazon and most other distribution channels. And don’t forget to join us for the reading of “Moments in Time: An UpSpring Reading” on June 28 at 7:00 pm EST. More information is forthcoming, but you can let us know that you plan on supporting contributors here.

Thank you to everyone who contributed to UpSpring, and to the many wonderful submitters whose pieces we couldn’t fit into this issue. It was a pleasure working with all of you, even if in very small ways. I hope you find words in this issue that settle into you like Jillian Stacia’s have for me. I hope you find within it many more wild ways to grow.

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Kapua Iao 5/24/22 Kapua Iao 5/24/22

Pivotal Moments: Yellow Arrow Journal (Vol. VII, No. 1) UpSpring

As Rebecca Pelky, guest editor of Yellow Arrow Journal Vol. VII, No. 1, UpSpring, made final decisions about the just released issue, she understood that an upspring for one person does not happen or resolve as it could or would for someone else. One moment in time more than likely means something different to everyone involved. This is why rather than focus on solely happy upsprings, the chosen pieces within the journal issue offer poignant, unique interpretations of what the theme means:

Some [pieces] focus on that thrilling moment of fruitfulness in which an upspring occurs, while others remind us that some upsprings happen only after or because of desperately difficult times. Any act of creation is necessarily tumultuous, so in these pages we celebrate while we also recognize and commiserate with all that birth and life and love entail, as only women can.

With this thought, we are thrilled to release UpSpring, the latest issue of Yellow Arrow Journal. We are privileged to share the voices within and on the cover. Thank you for supporting us and our authors and artists, and we hope you consider how your own pivotal moments, your own upsprings, reflect those explored within the journal.

The issue features Heather Brown Barrett, Sarah Helen Bates, Kamella Bird-Romero, Emma Bishop, Julia Burke, Zorina Exie Frey, Joyce Hayden, Raychelle Heath, Jericho M. Hockett, Whitney Hudak, Julia Hwang, Karen Kilcup, Merie Kirby, Ren Pike, Vanesha Pravin, Darah Schillinger, Kay Smith-Blum, Jillian Stacia, Liane St. Laurent, Jaime Warburton, Elyse Welles, Kory Wells, and Beth Winegarner. You can learn more about the beautiful cover art, “Spiritual Journey,” and how it reflects an upspring of our cover artist, April Graff, at yellowarrowpublishing.com/news/upspring-cover-reveal-spiritual-journey.

Rebecca was one of Yellow Arrow’s ANFRACTUOUS poets with her incredible piece “Nuhpuhk’hqash Qushki Qipit (Braids).” She holds a PhD from the University of Missouri, an MFA from Northern Michigan University, and is an Assistant Professor of Film Studies at Clarkson University. She is a member of the Brothertown Indian Nation of Wisconsin and a native of Michigan’s Upper Peninsula. Through a Red Place, her second poetry collection and winner of the 2021 Perugia Press Prize, was released in September 2021. Her first book, Horizon of the Dog Woman, was published by Saint Julian Press in 2020.

Paperback and PDF versions are now available from the Yellow Arrow bookstore. Discounts are also available (here) if you would like to purchase copies for friends and family (minimum purchase of five). You can also search for Yellow Arrow Journal on any e-book device or anywhere you purchase books, including Amazon and most other distribution channels.

On June 28, please join Rebecca and our authors for the live and virtual “Moments in Time: An UpSpring Reading.” More information is forthcoming, but you can let us know that you plan on supporting contributors here.

We hope you enjoy reading UpSpring as much as we enjoyed creating it. Congratulations to Rebecca for all her hard work. Thank you to the Yellow Arrow team for their diligence and thoughtful comments during the editing process. Cover design is by Alexa Laharty; editing is by Isabelle Anderson, Angela Firman, Siobhan McKenna, Ann Quinn, Piper Sartison, and Rachel Vinyard. And thank you for your continued encouragement of Yellow Arrow Publishing and the women involved in UpSpring.

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Kapua Iao 5/9/22 Kapua Iao 5/9/22

A Spiritual Journey: Yellow Arrow Journal, Vol. VII, No. 1, UpSpring

By Annie Marhefka

I met April Graff, the cover artist of Yellow Arrow Journal, UpSpring (Vol. VII, No. 1) decades ago, but it’s been almost 20 years since I’ve spoken with her. Her husband, Monnie, and my older brother were dear friends and worked together as machinists for many years. My brother passed away in 2003 in a car accident on his way home from a shift working with Monnie; they were also greatly impacted by his death. I have this memory of April after my brother’s memorial service that has stuck with me all this time. I think of it whenever I think of her.

After the service, we had gone back to my parents’ house and everyone was standing in the kitchen sharing memories of my brother, and we were just talking about what you talk about at those things—how sudden it was, how shocked we were, how we couldn’t comprehend it just yet. My father in particular was really struggling and I remember watching him grip the kitchen counter and thinking it was the only thing holding him up.

It was right between Thanksgiving and Christmas and there was constant holiday music playing in the background. April started singing along quietly to “O Holy Night” and her voice was just incredible. She wasn’t showing off or looking for attention; it actually seemed like she couldn’t help herself but sing along, like maybe she didn’t even realize she was singing out loud. She was sitting on a barstool across the kitchen counter from my father and when my father heard her voice, he stood upright and asked everyone in the room to quiet down a little. Everyone went silent, including April. My father nodded in her direction and asked her to sing again. When you’re at an event like that, you never really know what you can say or do to help, and I could tell that April was shy or insecure about singing because she hesitated, but I think she also felt like, if this was what he needed, if this was what she could offer, she would do it for him. So despite her hesitation, she sang for him.

I think my father asked her to sing that song five or six times that night and every time, she obliged. Every time, the room went silent, and we just got wrapped up in her voice, the artistic flair she started weaving into the lyrics and the melody. It felt a little like we were watching her grow in her confidence and expand her creativity as the night went on. I don’t remember much about that night, the speeches people gave, or the condolences offered. But I’ll never forget April singing.

And now, almost 20 years later, April’s artwork, "Spiritual Journey," is featured on the cover of Yellow Arrow Journal Vol. VII, No. 1, UpSpring. Guest edited by Rebecca Pelky, a member of the Brothertown Indian Nation of Wisconsin and a native of Michigan’s Upper Peninsula. Some of the pieces in this issue focus on that thrilling moment of fruitfulness in which an upspring occurs while others remind us that some upsprings happen only after or because of desperately difficult times. “Spiritual Journey” fits into the latter.

I had the honor of interviewing April about her painting and where she is now after her own spiritual journey. She probably didn’t realize at the time how much she helped my family that night, and so to see April finding her voice in this new way, through painting, gives me so much hope that she can continue to use her story and her creativity to inspire and lift others. Here is my conversation with April.

Annie: Tell our Yellow Arrow community a little about yourself and your artwork.

April: I live with my two kids and my husband, Monnie, and our two fur babies in Westminster, Maryland. I have always been into the arts of all sorts—dancing, singing, drawing, painting. I found my love for painting while watching Bob Ross when I was a kid. To this day, he’s still soothing to me. That was where my love for painting started; I loved how it calmed me. I could even fall asleep watching his show!

I am seven years sober—will be eight years in November. When I went into my recovery, I was looking for things to help me cope other than the normal things people run to. My husband got me an art set and an easel because he knew I used to love painting. He got me the basics: little canvases, some oil paints, and an acrylic set. I had never worked with acrylic but started experimenting. I shared some pictures of what I made, and people started asking me for pieces. I wasn’t charging anything initially; I just loved the idea of having my art in people’s homes. Once the supplies started getting more expensive, I decided to start charging and that’s helped me try out different styles and techniques. The painting I did for UpSpring started out as an experiment, but I was feeling all the things that day and it all comes out on the canvas. It’s how I cope with everyday life. I was told to journal, but I can’t organize my thoughts enough. Painting is how I journal. Many people can’t interpret what I was feeling at the time, but I can look at a painting I made, and I can see exactly what I was feeling at that time. I love that no painting ever turns out the same.

Annie: Our theme for this issue of Yellow Arrow Journal is UpSpring. We received so many amazing pieces of writing from readers who connected with this theme. What does the theme mean to you?

April: Every dark place I was in, I’ve always reached out to the light, and you see that through the elements of darkness and light in the painting. I remember being at the rock bottom of my addiction and crying and wondering, why can’t I get out of this, why am I like this. [But], I want[ed] to see my kids grow, I want[ed] to get out of this dark place. Where the painting passes and connects and intertwines, I know that [that] is where I reached my rock bottom. I had lost all of me. Where it passes through is my spirit reaching back through to the person that I used to be, to become even better than the person I was once before. Through my journey of recovery, I found a peace I never knew before. I was always trying to overcome my environment; I was battling every day to not be a product of my environment. I fought hard to get out of that. I think you can see that when you look at the painting.

Annie: Our guest editor for this issue, Rebecca Pelky, also shared how she connected the theme to the idea of raising up: raising children, raising ourselves, raising awareness. What causes do you hope to raise awareness about?

April: There is a purpose for every one of us. I feel like my art is reaching out to other people to pull them in. Through sharing my experience, it’s so tough to see others struggling with addiction and suffering, I feel so helpless sometimes. But to know that I have helped other people is worth how tough it is—I’ve led others to recovery, helped people understand why their loved ones are addicted or that they have no control, that it has nothing to do with not loving them enough. In a way, my paintings are an extended hand, trying to pull other people up with me.

Annie: What does it mean to you to be able to share your art with others in this way? Who are you most excited to share your art with?

April: It’s always gut wrenching to share my work because I’m afraid somebody’s going to say that’s not art or wonder if the [price] I’m charging is worth it. My art is an expression of what I’m feeling and how do you come up with a price for that? When I found out my painting was going to be on the cover, I immediately wanted to share that with my brother. My brother is also an artist, and these days, it’s how we communicate. I’ve always respected him as an artist; he has a talent I’ve always envied. Even growing up, as a little girl, I would try to copy something he made, and he would get mad and say I plagiarized him. I was just looking up to him. I just wanted to be like him. As we got older, he started teaching me techniques, and I started teaching him. I wasn’t the tag along anymore; I was more accepted as a peer in his eyes, and I’ve always respected that side of him.

Annie: What would you say to others who maybe are going through their own difficult journey right now?

April: There’s a reason why you're here; there’s a purpose. Share your experience, share your journey with the world; inspire others to be more, be whatever they want to be. Strive for that every day.

Annie: What gives you inspiration?

April: There’s days where I can’t do it for myself and so I do it for the people that love me. There are days when I do it for the sun, the air, the people that can’t be here. I’m just trying to be here to live the life they couldn't. I remind myself that I’m a survivor, not a victim. I survived. I want other people to survive, to become warriors.

UpSpring is currently available for PREORDER from the Yellow Arrow bookstore. Wholesale copies (discounted copies in lots of 5) can also be purchased. The issue will be released on May 24. And join us for the virtual reading of UpSpring, “Moments in Time: An UpSpring Reading,” on June 28.

Yellow Arrow recently revamped and restructured it’s Yellow Arrow Journal subscription plan to include two levels. Do you think you are an Avid Reader or a Literary Lover? Find out more about the discounts and goodies involved at yellowarrowpublishing.com/store/yellow-arrow-journal-subscription.

Thank you, April, for letting us in on your spiritual journey.

April Graff is from Baltimore, Maryland. She now lives in Westminster with her two amazing children, husband, and two family pets. “Spiritual Journey” is her very first published piece of art.

Annie Marhefka is a writer, HR consultant, and mama residing in Baltimore, Maryland, with her husband John, their daughter Elena, and son Joseph. When she’s not reading or writing, she loves traveling, boating, and hiking with her family. Her work has been published by Coffee + Crumbs, Versification, Capsule Stories, Remington Review, and more. Annie is working on a memoir about mother/daughter relationships; you can find her writing on Instagram, Twitter, and at anniemarhefka.com.

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Yellow Arrow Publishing is a nonprofit supporting women writers through publication and access to the literary arts.

Kapua Iao 3/1/22 Kapua Iao 3/1/22

Yellow Arrow Journal (VII/01) Submissions are Now Open!

Yellow Arrow Publishing is excited to announce submissions for our next issue of Yellow Arrow Journal, Vol. VII, No. 1 (spring 2022), are open March 1–31 addressing the overarching idea of r[a]ise. At its heart, r[a]ise brings up the idea that one rises as an individual and/or one raises others up. Rising is awakening but raising is also about what we do next as part of us but also outside ourselves: we raise children, raise food, raise awareness, raise questions. How do the two words interact in fruitful ways?”

This issue’s theme is

UpSpring

: to spring up

: a leap forward or upward

: to come into being

akin to a creation story (whether personal, cultural, or communal), a narrative of how something (someone) comes into being

Have you been raised by a community/communities that led to your own upspring?

Can a group or community upspring together? What kind of awakening might be needed for this to happen?

What upspring(s) have you brought into being? For someone or something else? Tell us about something or someone you raised.

What upsprings (in nature, in society, in your communities) have inspired an awakening?

Yellow Arrow Journal is looking for creative nonfiction, poetry, and cover art submissions by writers/artists that identify as women, on the theme of UpSpring. Submissions can be in any language as long as an English translation accompanies them. For more information regarding journal submission guidelines, please visit yellowarrowpublishing.com/submissions. Please read our guidelines carefully before submitting. To learn more about our editorial views and how important your voice is in your story, read About the Journal. This issue will be released in May 2022.

We would also like to welcome this issue’s guest editor: Rebecca Pelky. Rebecca was one of our ANFRACTUOUS poets with her incredible piece “Nuhpuhk’hqash Qushki Qipit (Braids).” She holds a PhD from the University of Missouri, an MFA from Northern Michigan University, and is an Assistant Professor of Film Studies at Clarkson University. She is a member of the Brothertown Indian Nation of Wisconsin and a native of Michigan’s Upper Peninsula. Through a Red Place, her second poetry collection and winner of the 2021 Perugia Press Prize, was released in September 2021. Her first book, Horizon of the Dog Woman, was published by Saint Julian Press in 2020.

We are also excited to announce that Rebecca will be teaching the workshop “Writing the Archive” for Yellow Arrow in April. The goal of this workshop is to introduce participants to various methods of writing creatively using archival materials as inspiration. While we often think of archives as places where research—in that most academic sense—occurs, archival documents can also be source material for creative inspiration. Archival material is mostly how Rebecca wrote her Perugia Press collection Through a Red Place.

Find out more about Rebecca at rebeccapelky.com.

Check back frequently and sign up for our newsletter as we are excited to reopen journal subscriptions soon!

The journal is just one of many ways that Yellow Arrow Publishing works to support and inspire women through publication and access to the literary arts. Since its founding in 2016, Yellow Arrow has worked tirelessly to make an impact on the local and global community by advocating for writers that identify as women. Yellow Arrow proudly represents the voices of women from around the globe. Creating diversity in the literary world and providing a safe space is deeply important. Every writer has a story to tell, every story is worth telling.

You can be a part of this mission and amazing experience by submitting to Yellow Arrow, taking a workshop, volunteering, and/or donating today.

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Kapua Iao 2/15/22 Kapua Iao 2/15/22

Tôn Kutômkimun (How We Rise)

Yellow Arrow Publishing would like to announce the next guest editor for Yellow Arrow Journal, Rebecca Pelky. Rebecca will oversee the creation of our Vol. VII, No. 1 issue. Mark your calendars! Submissions open March 1 and the issue will be released in May.

This next issue of Yellow Arrow Journal will be on the overarching idea of r[a]ise. Rebecca states,

“I think that r[a]ise has the potential for myriad interpretations, but at its heart for me is the idea that one rises as an individual and/or one raises others up. Rising is awakening but raising is also about what we do next as part of us but also outside ourselves: we raise children, raise food, raise awareness, raise questions. How do the two words interact in fruitful ways?”

We are excited to announce the theme of Vol. VII, No. 1 next week.

Rebecca was one of our ANFRACTUOUS poets with her incredible piece “Nuhpuhk’hqash Qushki Qipit (Braids).” She holds a PhD from the University of Missouri, an MFA from Northern Michigan University, and is an Assistant Professor of Film Studies at Clarkson University. She is a member of the Brothertown Indian Nation of Wisconsin and a native of Michigan’s Upper Peninsula. Through a Red Place, her second poetry collection and winner of the 2021 Perugia Press Prize, was released in September 2021. Her first book, Horizon of the Dog Woman, was published by Saint Julian Press in 2020.

Find out more about Rebecca at http://rebeccapelky.com/.

Please follow Yellow Arrow on Facebook and Instagram for the theme announcement. Below, you can read more about Rebecca’s perspectives on r[a]ise. We look forward to working with Rebecca over the next few months.

By Rebecca Pelky

Ihtôqat nutôcimohkawô. Let me tell you a story. It’s the story of The Three Sisters, Shwi Mitukushq. This story has many different versions among Indigenous peoples, and this is one of them. Once, there were three sisters living together. Each of these sisters was very different from the others, but they all enjoyed spending time in the field next to their house. The youngest, who was not yet grown, crawled along the ground. The middle sister liked to lounge against the eldest, enjoying the wind and sun on her face. The eldest, feeling responsible for the younger sisters, always stood straight and tall, keeping an eye on things—especially the wanderings of the youngest. One day, the eldest sister noticed a boy visiting the field. They were all curious about him because he was talking to the animals. The boy began to visit often, and always showed them interesting things. Then one night in late summer, the youngest sister disappeared. The two elder sisters mourned her loss, and though they searched, they couldn’t find her. Not long after, the middle sister also disappeared, and the eldest was left alone. She blamed herself for not watching over them carefully enough. In her loneliness over the winter, she began to age and wither away. Thankfully, in spring, her sisters returned. They had been so curious about the boy that they had followed him and then were unable to return because of winter’s arrival. Seeing how much distress they’d caused the sister who always looked after them, they vowed to never leave again. That’s why the three sisters—corn, beans, and squash—are always planted together. Each plant helps the others thrive: beans climb the sturdy corn stalks, which allow them to bask in the sun above the squash plants’ vines and broad leaves. In turn, beans provide nitrogen to the soil and also stabilize the corn during high winds. Meanwhile, the large squash leaves help the soil retain moisture by shading it. The three sisters grow best when they rise together.

As I write this blog post to introduce myself, I’m sitting at my desk in a house on land that once belonged to the Mohawk people, whose name for themselves is Kanien’kehá:ka (“People of the Flint”). The Kanien’kehá:ka are members of the Haudenosaunee Confederacy, which many know as the Iroquois Confederacy. I’m not Mohawk nor do I belong to another tribe in the Haudenosaunee Confederacy. Yet I share this to express my gratitude. For the Haudenosaunee and many other Indigenous Nations, including my own, gratitude is central to our worldview, and what is gratitude but the recognition that we don’t rise alone. In recognizing my privilege of existing and writing to you in this space, I hope to raise others up with me—raise awareness, knowledge, perceptions.

As I’ve learned more about the history of my Mohegan ancestors, I’ve also learned that I have many reasons to be grateful to the Haudenosaunee. Like the sisters, my people would have had a difficult time thriving without them. In the 18th century, around the time of the Revolutionary War, my Indigenous ancestors were trying to move west, out from under the influence of colonial alcohol and land grabs. They, along with people from several other tribes, established a town in what would become Upstate New York. They built a church and called their town Brothertown, or, in Mohegan, Eeyamquittoowauconnuck. This was only possible because the Oneida Nation welcomed them into their territory, vowing that, “. . . and now brethren we receive you into our body as it were, now we may say we have one head, one heart, and one blood. . . . And if the evil spirit stirs up any nation whatsoever or person against you and causes your blood to be spilt we shall take it as if it was done unto us; or as if they spilt the blood from our own bodies. And we shall be ever ready to defend you and help you or even be ready to protect you according to our abilities. Brethren, we look upon you as a sixth brother. . . . The Oneidas, Kiyougas, Manticucks, Tuscaroras, and Tdelenhanas, they are your elder brothers. But as for the Mohawks, Onandagas, and Senecas, they are your fathers . . .” At the heart of this welcome, and indeed at the heart of the many Indigenous worldviews is that the success of a community outweighs the success of the individual—we should raise each other up as we rise ourselves. Even as my ancestors migrated again to Michigan territory (which would become Wisconsin), the Oneida, some of whom also moved to Wisconsin, continued to be close friends to the Brothertown Nation. That relationship remains to this day.

It’s all been a kind of awakening, as I learn more about what it means to be a Mohegan of Brothertown (and Mohican and Eastern Cherokee and African and German and British and French). Which parts of myself do I need to raise up? Which parts of myself need me as an ally? It’s a strange paradox to contain so many people—the colonizer and the colonized. But those parts also have to coexist in order for me to thrive. That’s not always easy, but I remember the lessons of the three sisters. I remember the lessons from my Brothertown ancestors—how Mohegan, Narragansett, Tunxis, Pequot, Niantic, and Montaukett peoples built a town and a church together, and together, have raised each other up for over 240 years.

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Kapua Iao 11/30/21 Kapua Iao 11/30/21

Behind the Issue: ANFRACTUOUS (Yellow Arrow Journal, Vol. VI, No. 2)

By Keshni Naicker Washington

“Of all the stories we tell ourselves and others, the most significant follow the words ‘I am . . .’”

To be a writer, poet, or artist is to be an outsider. We give form to our experiences, creating channels and access points for others to connect into in the process. And once a thing has form, we can choose to carry it, put it down, or step beyond it. Belonging is not something we negotiate with the external world, it’s inside us.

To be a writer, poet, or artist is to be brave enough to press the submit button that sends your work into the hands of strangers, risking it being received with resonance or not, and being willing to do that over and over again.

As guest editor of Yellow Arrow Journal ANFRACTUOUS, I had the unique opportunity to be on the other side of that button for the first time. I remembered the sting of the rejections I have received as a writer and so I was apprehensive about the task of choosing between submissions. But the process followed by the team and helmed by Kapua Iao, Editor-in-Chief, laid out a firm path. Due to the volume of submissions, I was soon chin-deep into the “blind” reading process (reading the pieces without any author identification) with Yellow Arrow staff members as we voted on our ‘favorites.’ The high caliber and vast landscape covered by the entries took me on many worthwhile journeys. I remain in awe of the courage and authenticity with which each piece was shared by its creator. The responsibility of making the final choices weighed me down for several days but it also felt right that it should be so difficult.

The Yellow Arrow team’s experience and wisdom certainly smoothed the process and steered my adherence to the theme of the issue—ANFRACTUOUS—and the pieces’ cohesion with each other as we strung them together intentionally to create a progressive and overarching story of the twists and turns of belonging-ness. ANFRACTUOUS starts with the etherealness of a cloud and the search for a home in the opening poem “Homebound” by Sylvia Niederberger and ends with the insight of hindsight on a full life lived in “At Last” by Mary Marca. Along the way we get a peek into the search for belonging that spans not only the continent of North America but across oceans to Africa and Europe and India, as well.

The pieces in this Yellow Arrow Journal collection explore these ideas of belonging-ness and the winding and intricate paths of diverse human experience. Some wrestle with the present-day and some cast a searchlight on the past. Meaning is examined in the land or places we leave or cleave to. And ultimately all included authors are standing apart and forging their own sense of belonging-ness as they bravely own their story and offer it to the world as a signal fire for others between these pages. For this, they (and everyone who submitted) have my sincere admiration and gratitude, and so, too, does the staff of Yellow Arrow Publishing, who give their time to create spaces where these signal fires can exist and breathe and take pride in stewarding new voices into the literary world.

Life is a process of becoming. I believe that the purpose of art and writing is to help us hold a mirror to the world and ourselves.

Paperback and PDF versions are available from the Yellow Arrow bookstore. Discounts are also available (here) if you would like to purchase copies for friends and family (minimum purchase of five). A great opportunity with Christmas just around the corner! You can also search for Yellow Arrow Journal on any e-book device or anywhere you purchase books, including Amazon and most other distribution channels.

And if you are interested in reading what our incredible authors thought of the theme, pick up a copy of the PDF version along with the paperback. Included within the PDF version only are the authors’ and Keshni’s responses to the following question: what/who/where was a turning point toward acceptance/belonging? Take some time and reflect on your own response. Is there a turning point for you?

One final note. With this blog, we are excited to release the prerecorded reading of Anfractuous, “An Exploration of Belonging: The Anfractuous Reading,” on the Yellow Arrow YouTube channel today.

Get the full reading here and please support Yellow Arrow by subscribing to our YouTube channel.

I hope by reading the offerings in this issue and listening to the authors’ voices you will be inspired to reflect on your own identification that follows the words “I am . . .”

It has been an honor to be invited by the Yellow Arrow team to contribute to such a mission in the creation of the ANFRACTUOUS issue. Available now! Go get your copy!

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If you haven’t had the opportunity yet, please make sure to donate to our Turning the Next Page fundraising campaign. Yellow Arrow is able to share stories of writers who identify as women because of our incredible community of supporters. Your assistance contributes to the publication of our journal as well as our incredible chapbooks and zines.

Yellow Arrow Publishing is a nonprofit supporting women writers through publication and access to the literary arts. Thank you for supporting independent publishing.

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Accepting Yourself: Yellow Arrow Journal (Vol. VI, No. 2) ANFRACTUOUS

“Of all the stories we tell ourselves and others, the most significant follow the words ‘I am . . .’”

Keshni Naicker Washington’s first sentence to the introduction of ANFRACTUOUS, Yellow Arrow Journal Vol. VI, No. 2 (fall 2021), sets the tone for the entire issue. One that explores the idea of belonging and unbelonging; as Keshni, the issue’s wonderful guest editor, explains, “. . . we become some self-fashioned mosaic of belonging unique to our own choices and the intricate twists of our experiences.” What does it mean to belong and who gets to decide when/how someone belongs?

When we first announced the theme ANFRACTUOUS (full of windings and intricate turnings, things that twist and turn but do not break), we weren’t sure what to expect, if submitters would explore the conscious/unconscious decisions that make us who we are. But they did, and we laughed and cried and commiserated and sympathized. Our hearts soared while reading the over one hundred submissions we received. Thank you to everyone who took the time to send us their stories. Ultimately, we had to narrow down our finalists; the chosen pieces and contributors resonated with Keshni, the Yellow Arrow team, and each other by weaving a beautiful story about belonging-ness. We hope that you, our dear readers, are ready to take this voyage with our authors and with Keshni. Thank you, Keshni, for putting together such an extraordinary issue.

Paperback and PDF versions are now available from the Yellow Arrow bookstore. Discounts are also available (here) if you would like to purchase copies for friends and family (minimum purchase of five). A great opportunity with Christmas just around the corner! You can also search for Yellow Arrow Journal on any e-book device or anywhere you purchase books, including Amazon and most other distribution channels.

One final note, don’t forget to check out our prerecorded reading of Anfractuous, “An Exploration of Belonging: The Anfractuous Reading,” which will be released on the Yellow Arrow YouTube channel on November 30. In the meantime, here’s a sneak peek.

We hope you enjoy reading ANFRACTUOUS as much as we enjoyed creating it. Thank you for your continued encouragement of Yellow Arrow Publishing and the women involved in ANFRACTUOUS.

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Yellow Arrow Publishing is a nonprofit supporting women writers through publication and access to the literary arts. Thank you for supporting independent publishing.

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Yellow Arrow Journal Submissions are Now Open!

Yellow Arrow Publishing is excited to announce that submissions for our next issue of Yellow Arrow Journal, Vol. VI, No. 2 (fall 2021) is open September 1–30 addressing the topic of “belonging-ness,” exploring what it means to belong or un-belong, our nearness or distance (intimacy or alienation) from others and ourselves.

This issue’s theme will be:

Anfractuous:

full of windings and intricate turnings

things that twist and turn but do not break

How has your “belonging-ness” been shaped by your own personal life journey? Have you taken any sharp unpredictable turns, or has it been a slower accumulation or a shedding?

Is it necessary to “belong” to be happy? How has your sense of who you are been a process of “un-belonging”?

How have your circumstances (the land you live in or don’t live in/your family history) or your conscious choices (your chosen family/career/passions) tempered or shaped your understanding of your own belonging?

Yellow Arrow Journal is looking for creative nonfiction, poetry, and cover art submissions by writers/artists that identify as women, on the theme of Anfractuous. Submissions can be in any language as long as an English translation accompanies it. For more information regarding journal submission guidelines, please visit yellowarrowpublishing.com/submissions. Please read our guidelines carefully before submitting. To learn more about our editorial views and how important your voice is in your story, read About the Journal. This issue will be released in November 2021.

We would also like to welcome this issue’s guest editor: Keshni Naicker Washington. Keshni considers her creative endeavors a means of lighting signal fires for others. Born and raised in an apartheid segregated neighborhood in Kwa-Zulu Natal, South Africa, she now also calls Washington, D.C. home. And after nine years here has finally gotten used to Orion being the right way up in the night sky. Her stories are influenced by her evolving definition of home and the tides of political and social change that move us all. She is an alumnus of VONA and TIN HOUSE writing workshops. Connect with her keshniwashington.com and on Instagram @knwauthor. You can also learn more about Keshni through her Vol. V, No. 3 (Re)Formation piece “Alien” and her Yellow Arrow Journal .W.o.W. #20.

The journal is just one of many ways that Yellow Arrow Publishing works to support and inspire women through publication and access to the literary arts. Since its founding in 2016, Yellow Arrow has worked tirelessly to make an impact on the local and global community by advocating for writers that identify as women. Yellow Arrow proudly represents the voices of women from around the globe. Creating diversity in the literary world and providing a safe space are deeply important. Every writer has a story to tell, every story is worth telling.

You can be a part of this mission and amazing experience by submitting to Yellow Arrow, joining our virtual poetry workshop, volunteering, and/or donating today. Follow us on Facebook and Instagram to learn more about future publishing and workshop opportunities. Publications are available at our bookstore and through most distributors.

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Meet an Artist: Megha Balooni

from the 2021 art series

Storytelling takes place in many different forms, not just writing. When an artist shares a piece with others they also share a piece of who they are with their audience. We see the expression of their aesthetic, culture, and identity woven into their work.

This is definitely visible in the artwork for Yellow Arrow Journal. During each journal submission period, we ask for creative nonfiction, poetry, and cover art that reflects a chosen theme. We get incredible artwork created in various media and choose the one that best represents the theme.

To celebrate our talented cover artists, we will be releasing a series of blogs to share their stories and the importance that art has on their lives.

The fourth artist that we are featuring in our Art Series is Megha Balooni. Megha is an architect currently residing in India. Realizing her love for stories—written and visual—from early on, she believes these two mediums to be her most strong communications tool. Through her visual designs, she is striving to curate a more inclusive and optimistic world. Her works take inspiration from nature, emotions, and expressions. She also contributes to World Architecture Community, an online architectural publication platform, where she enjoys curating interviews. She enjoys reading, cooking, and spending time wondering. Her art piece, “Lidya,” was seen on the cover of Yellow Arrow Journal, Resilience: Vol. V, No. 1, Winter 2020.

You can find Megha at thelidyart.com or on Instagram and Facebook. And in September, you can see her incredible artwork on the covers of Yellow Arrow’s EMERGE zines: Pandemic Stories and Coming into View. More information about EMERGE will be available soon.

Megha recently took some time to answer a few questions for us.

What do you love most about art and why?

Just the fluidity and how there is no right or wrong in art. Humans are conditioned to abide by rules otherwise we would go bonkers. But with art, you can truly discover yourself. It can be a way for you to express and cope. It can be a way to feel good about yourself, it could be healing.

What are your top five tips for aspiring artists?

Some learnings that I can definitely say apply to all creative endeavors: make a vision board that includes your inspiration and aspirations, have faith in yourself and your abilities, allow yourself to learn and unlearn as you grow (shed that past skin if it doesn’t feel like you anymore!), there’s space for everyone to thrive, and don’t allow your insecurities project onto your personality. Things might seem rocky and too bright some days but if you keep pursuing, it will create a path for you. And lastly, love what you do!

In three words how would you describe your aesthetic in art?

My aesthetic takes inspiration from nature, emotions, and female expressions. It’s a culmination of what I’m feeling the most at the moment which contributes to the colour palette and textures.

Thank you, Megha for answering our questions. You can purchase a PDF of Resilience in the Yellow Arrow bookstore, along with other Yellow Arrow publications.

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The 2021 art series was created and put together by Marketing Associate, Michelle Lin. Yellow Arrow Publishing is a nonprofit supporting women writers through publication and access to the literary arts. Thank you for supporting independent publishing.

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Meet an Artist: Ann Marie Sekeres

from the 2021 art series

To celebrate our talented cover artists, we will be releasing a series of blogs to share their stories and the importance that art has on their lives.

The third artist that we are featuring in our Art Series is Ann Marie Sekeres. Ann Marie is an illustrator whose drawings have appeared in publications worldwide. She recently illustrated the cover for the samurai by Linda M. Crate, published by Yellow Arrow. She lives in the New York area and draws every day. Follow her work on Instagram @annmarieprojects and at annmarieprojects.com. Her art piece, “Couch,” was seen on the cover of Yellow Arrow Journal HOME: Vol. V, No. 2, Spring 2020.

Ann Marie recently took some time to answer a few questions for us.

If you weren’t an artist today, what would you be doing?

I’m 51. I think part of getting older is that you no longer identify yourself by one label or profession. I do a lot of different stuff. I’m an artist when I’m drawing. I’m a student when I try to speak French. It’s okay to do a million different things and some of them, not very well. I didn’t feel that way as a kid. I wanted to be one great thing. Life, at least mine, turned out much different than that.

Who is your favorite artist and why?

Florine Stettheimer. For embracing the girly in early American modernism.

What inspired the piece that you created for Yellow Arrow?

I was thinking of Henri Matisse and his shapes and drawings. That was the goal.

Thank you, Ann Marie, for answering our questions. You can purchase a PDF of HOME in the Yellow Arrow bookstore, along with other Yellow Arrow publications.

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The Mosaic of Belonging

Yellow Arrow Publishing is excited to announce the next guest editor for Yellow Arrow Journal, Keshni Naicker Washington, who will be overseeing the creation of our Vol. VI, No. 2 issue on “belonging-ness,” exploring what it means to belong or un-belong, our nearness or distance (intimacy or alienation) from others and ourselves. According to Keshni, “To belong or not to belong is a subjective and personal experience that can be influenced by a number of factors within ourselves and our surrounding environment and is a fundamental human motivation, found across all cultures and creeds.”

Keshni considers her creative endeavors a means of lighting signal fires for others. Born and raised in an apartheid segregated neighborhood in Kwa-Zulu Natal, South Africa, she now also calls Washington, D.C. home. And after nine years here has finally gotten used to Orion being the right way up in the night sky. Her stories are influenced by her evolving definition of home and the tides of political and social change that move us all. She is an alumnus of VONA and TIN HOUSE writing workshops. Connect with her keshniwashington.com and on Instagram @knwauthor.

Please follow Yellow Arrow on Facebook and Instagram for the theme announcement for Vol. VI, No. 2 at the end of this month. Below, you can read Keshni’s perspectives on belonging. We look forward to working with Keshni over the next few months.

By Keshni Naicker Washington, written July 2021

On the fifth of December 2013, I awoke to the news that “tata Madiba”—Nelson Mandela—would no longer walk this earth. The already cold and gray Thursday morning in D.C. turned drearier as I carried my sorrow, along with my laptop and lunch, onto the metro train that would take me downtown and to work. The rush-hour train was packed with jacket and woolen hat clad commuters. As we emerged from the underground tunnel and traversed the gray Potomac River, I caught a glimpse of the Washington Memorial impaling the cloudy sky. Hot tears came fast as the loss of tata (grandfather) sunk in. If anyone saw, they did not show it. I was a South African immigrant in mourning. Unseen in a crowd. Might as well have been on an alien planet.

The chasm between where I had come from and where I now lived gaped before me. I grew up in an apartheid segregated neighborhood called Chatsworth, in the province of Kwa-Zulu Natal. We lived in small government houses that leaned against each other, where the bathrooms were outside. Neighbors shared everything: gossip, festivals (Eid, Diwali, Christmas), and at least two house walls. You were always seen. But under the apartheid system, your worth, freedom of movement, and access was dictated by your skin, and the straightness of your hair, and codified into law. To survive, that young girl in Chatsworth defined herself by the things she did not want to be, a shield against so many destructive things that apartheid South Africa was telling her about where she belonged and what she could or could not be. And therein lies the rub (no matter which side of the Atlantic Ocean): there will always be forces trying to fit you into a category to tell you where you belong.

Almost without fail whenever I am in an Uber in D.C., at some point the driver detects the difference in my accent and enquires, “Where are you from?”

I answer, “South Africa.”

It’s almost always followed by, “But where are your parents from?”

“South Africa.” My answer is truthful.

My grandfather’s release from indenture papers was found among my grandmother’s things when she passed. He had died when my dad was very young. My grandmother, who was illiterate, eked out a means of supporting her children by selling vegetables. I do remember my maternal grandfather who died when I was a young girl. He worked from a young age, for the span of his life, as a clothes presser in a textile factory. They were all descended from the indentured sugar cane workers, brought by ship, by the British from their Indian colony to their African one, to toil under lifetime contracts that would be passed to their children.

The Uber drivers and others in D.C. assess my brown skin, black eyes, and straight black hair, against my claim that I have belonged to Africa for generations. I don’t feel compelled to fill in the blanks. I am a proud South African . . . who is also now becoming American. And after almost a decade here I (really) have finally gotten used to Orion being the right way up in the night sky and driving on the other side of the road.

As an adult, learning to be comfortable within my own skin has meant an unlearning, a deconstruction, of imposed definitions and more crucially my defenses against such prejudices. These mosaic pieces of “self” shift and rearrange themselves inside me as new experiences are added. When we truly see ourselves, we are also free to “belong” or choose not to, on our own terms. We are free to bestow a light on the other and allow them to belong.

From my apartment in D.C. on a cold December in 2013, I watched U.S. President Barack Obama at Nelson Mandela’s memorial service in South Africa. He spoke about the Nguni concept of Ubuntu, saying, “There is a word in South Africa—Ubuntu—a word that captures Mandela’s greatest gift: his recognition that we are all bound together in ways that are invisible to the eye; that there is a oneness to humanity; that we achieve ourselves by sharing ourselves with others, and caring for those around us.”

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Meet an Artist: Kalichi Lamar

from the 2021 art series

To celebrate our talented cover artists, we will be releasing a series of blogs to share their stories and the importance that art has on their lives.

The second artist that we are featuring in our Art Series is Kalichi Lamar. Kalichi’s first name is Taíno for “fountain of the high mountain.” She is a Higuayagua-Taino from the island of Borikén where her roots are tied to her name and her connection to nature. Kalichi has an MS/MA in Psychology and Arts in Medicine, and she has worked professionally with cancer patients and the elderly. Additionally, Kalichi runs an online shop of wood-burn pieces, crafted items, and creative wellness sessions. Her work is inspired by nature and Taíno roots. As smoke envelops her space, it becomes incense and prayer infused into each piece. Kalichi creates to inspire others to reconnect to self, nature, and Spirit. Her art piece, “Nature Springs From Her” was seen on the cover of Yellow Arrow Journal: RENASCENCE, Vol. VI, No.1, Spring 2021.

You can find Kalichi at kalichisessentials.com or on Instagram and Facebook.

Kalichi recently took some time to answer a few questions for us.

As an artist what types of habits have you developed when creating art?

One of the most important habits I developed when creating art is the state of mindfulness. This mindfulness often transfers to a flow state. I get into this state by tending my plants in my art space, turning on instrumental music, lighting candles or incense, thanking the Creator and my ancestors, and allowing natural light to come in. This sets the tone to create and puts me in a headspace for inspiration. The result is often an intuitive and meditative creation.

What are your top five tips for aspiring artists?

Great question! My five tips for aspiring artists would be:

Start with a small, economical kit. If you are not sure what method you like, it’s best to start small; rather than purchasing all the oil paints, oil brushes, etc., to then realize you don’t enjoy or are not good at oil painting.
Try a variety of genres. You might not be good at painting, but you might be amazing at collages. Or, you might be a great jewelry maker or woodcarver. There are a plethora of creative outlets. So, try different art methods to find your niche.
Keep creating! Don’t stop creating, even if it does not take off professionally. Create because it comes from your soul.
Avoid comparing yourself to other artists. Art is subjective to each person’s taste. What may seem like an amazing art piece to one person, might not be to another. Additionally, each person’s skill develops differently. Therefore, don’t compare yourself! Art can be so many things and opportunities! Each artist has their own unique ability. Hone in on yours, fall in love with it. If it brings you joy, keep creating!
Make sure you create from your soul. Your art is a reflection of you.

What inspired you to submit to Yellow Arrow?

I learned about Yellow Arrow through a fellow tribal sister. She told me about Yellow Arrow’s RENASCENCE edition and its mission to give voices to marginalized/self-identifying women. I fell in love with this mission and felt it was a great opportunity to give a voice and exposure to my Taíno community. Every day, I am grateful I was given the opportunity.

Thank you, Kalichi, for answering our questions. You can purchase a paperback or PDF of RENASCENCE in the Yellow Arrow bookstore, along with other Yellow Arrow publications.

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Meet an Artist: Jeanne Quinn

from the 2021 art series

Storytelling takes place in many different forms, not just writing. When an artist shares a piece with others, they also share a piece of who they are with their audience. We see the expression of their aesthetic, culture, and identity woven into their work.

To celebrate our talented cover artists, we will be releasing a series of blogs to share their stories and the importance that art has on their lives.

The first artist that we are featuring in our Art Series is Jeanne Quinn. Jeanne creates theatrical installations that attempt to remind us that everything is ephemeral. She studied art history and baroque music performance at Oberlin College, and earned her MFA in ceramics from the University of Washington. She has exhibited widely, including Denver Art Museum, the Milwaukee Art Museum, the Kemper Museum for Contemporary Art, and Art Basel/Design Miami. She has been awarded residencies at the MacDowell Colony, the European Ceramic Work Centre, Zentrum für Keramik Berlin, and many others. She is a professor and chair of the Department of Art and Art History at the University of Colorado. Her art piece, “Lace Drawing,” was seen on the cover of Yellow Arrow Journal, (Re)Formation, Vol. V, No. 3, Fall 2020.

You can find Jeanne at jeannequinnstudio.com or on Instagram and Facebook.

Jeanne recently took some time to answer a few questions for us.

Who inspired/influenced your journey as an artist the most?

I saw Anne Smith’s work in a show in Boston in 1990. I was incredibly inspired by what she was doing with surface decoration on ceramics and shelves and took a class from her at a local ceramics studio. I ended up becoming her studio assistant, and she served as a mentor, getting me started studying at the University of Colorado and then at the University of Washington, in ceramics. There have been many important teachers along the way—most importantly, Betty Woodman—but I never would have gotten started without Anne’s encouragement and smarts in navigating the journey. You can find Anne on Instagram or at annesmith.net.

What inspired the piece that you created for Yellow Arrow?

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My mother sent me an article from the Washington Post that included a photograph of a beautiful piece of lace. She knew I had always been interested in lace, and we had a small collection of pieces tatted by my great-grandmother, which she passed on to me. The photograph she sent inspired me to start drawing lace, which I’ve done continuously ever since. I love translating something so crafted and material into an image, since, as a ceramicist, I usually do the reverse.

What projects are you currently working on?

I’m making an installation, Dust And A Shadow, for an exhibition at the Centre des Arts Visuels in Montreal. It’s my response to the isolation and general experience of Covid. I started with a drawing of some baroque architectural moldings and turned those into dimensional, linear ceramic wall sculptures. The shadows of the pieces are rendered in clear vinyl adhered to the wall, so they are both shadowy and reflective.

Thank you, Jeanne, for answering our questions. You can purchase a paperback or PDF of (Re)Formation in the Yellow Arrow bookstore, along with other Yellow Arrow publications.

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Awaken and Reflect: Yellow Arrow Journal (Vol. VI, No. 1) RENASCENCE

Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference.

When we first announced the theme of our just released Yellow Arrow Journal issue, Vol. VI, No. 1 (spring 2021), on RENASCENCE, we were eager to read through submissions and explore the idea of cultural resurrection through the eyes of diverse authors/artists that identify as women. And we received many thoughtful, wonderful pieces that explored the idea of a personal/cultural renaissance, reviving something that was once dormant. We thank everyone who took the time to send us their experiences and wish we could have published them all. That said, the chosen pieces and contributors resonated with Taína (our guest editor), the Yellow Arrow team, and each other in a way we did not expect. Alone, each piece explores a poignant moment in life. A reflection on a moment or even a lifetime of moments.

Together, as a complete issue, the pieces delve into personal and collective cultural identity and how we might view (and could view) moments or reflections we didn’t think to contemplate. As Taína states:

Some pieces are nostalgic, bittersweet gifts from the depths of our memories that we cling to, while others are terror-filled nightmares we cannot awaken from fast enough, and still others are calls to action that will not be ignored. Each included story is a petroglyph on a cave wall, a flag planted in paper and ink. Each author is an explorer of their own culture, not discovering or conquering—for the stories of our ancestors have always been there waiting—but acting as pioneers of the past, revisiting and reclaiming the deep-rooted whispers and reflecting them into the future.

Perfect-bound and PDF versions are now available from the Yellow Arrow bookstore. Discounts are also available (here) if you would like to purchase copies for friends and family (minimum purchase of five). You can also search for Yellow Arrow Journal on any e-book device or anywhere you purchase books, including Amazon and most other distribution channels.

If you preordered your paperback copy before today, you will receive your free PDF shortly. Thank you for following our prerelease Renascence LIVE! events and for supporting our contributors. And don’t forget to join us June 4 at 7:00 pm EST for Renascence: A Reading, featuring authors of the issue and hosted by Taína. Details and how to connect to the reading can be found here.

We hope you enjoy reading RENASCENCE as much as we enjoyed creating it. Thank you for your continued encouragement of Yellow Arrow Publishing and the women involved in RENASCENCE.

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Nature Springs From Her: Yellow Arrow Journal Vol. VI, No. 1 RENASCENCE

It’s official! The cover of our Yellow Arrow Journal issue on RENASCENCE (Vol. VI, No. 1, Spring 2021) is here and PRESALE has commenced! “Nature Springs From Her” by Kalichi Lamar, pyrography on a wood panel, was inspired by the ceiba tree, the national tree of Borikén (Puerto Rico). It is also the sacred tree of her people, the indigenous Taínos. This tree was used to build canoes and is believed to have a direct connection to the spirit world and secrets of Atabey (mother earth). Rather than say more here, we’ll let Kalichi, Taína, and some of our authors explore the significance of “Nature Springs From Her” and RENASCENCE through a series of Facebook Live events starting tomorrow with Kalichi. Renascence LIVE! is a celebration of the hard work put into this journal issue by Taína, the Yellow Arrow team, and the authors/artist. It is an opportunity for the contributors and Taína to speak for themselves. To explain why renascence and cultural resurrection resonated with them.

Don’t forget to like us on Facebook to watch and participate in Renascence LIVE! And purchase a copy of RENASCENCE before May 20 to get a free PDF on release day! Click here to learn more.

Let’s let Taína explain more about the importance of renascence and this journal issue to her.

By Taína

This issue of the Yellow Arrow Journal was born in an email where an idea was shared that was just too big for a blog post. That idea was writing about cultural resurrection.

When Yellow Arrow Publishing invited me to be guest editor of this issue, I leaped at the chance. I was thrilled not just to take up space as a Taíno woman, but for the chance to amplify the voices of other marginalized writers and to share with them the power to declare their existences in paper and ink.

It’s no secret that I am a disciple of paper and ink. Of all of the weapons that could be proffered, these are the ones I will always choose. In the correct hand, paper and ink are tools of resistance. Of rebellion. Like my ancestor etching petroglyphs on the caves of Isla Mona, it is daring to make permanent a fleeting existence. The fuel which has ignited revolutions and birthed nations. In the hands of the silenced, paper and ink is a re-claimation. A renascence. It is ours.

It calls us to an awakening, not just of things that were dormant, but systemically silenced. This Yellow Arrow Journal issue on RENASCENCE is an invitation to journey through each other’s cultural renascence in the various manifestations awakening can take. Some pieces are nostalgic, bittersweet gifts from the depths of our memories that we cling to, while others are terror-filled nightmares we cannot awaken from fast enough, and still others are calls to action that will not be ignored. Each included story is a petroglyph on a cave wall, a flag planted in paper and ink. Each author is an explorer of their own culture, not discovering or conquering—for the stories of our ancestors have always been there waiting—but acting as pioneers of the past, revisiting and reclaiming the deep-rooted whispers and reflecting them into the future.

That this issue was almost too easy to put together, is a testament to the Yellow Arrow team, and to the authors and artists who dared to submit to us. Even the challenges we’ve faced along the way have manifested themselves into crucial learning experiences. For this, I am deeply grateful to everyone at Yellow Arrow, but especially to our Editor-in-Chief Kapua Iao, for making this experience one of profound growth and meaning.

I’d also like to invite you all to a marvel at the cover of this issue and to watch Renascence LIVE!, where we’ll find out all about who our authors/artists are and how they connected to the theme. There’ll even be time for comments and questions from you! I can’t wait to see you there!

If that isn’t enough, we’re giving you a free PDF of RENASCENCE with every preorder before May 20! That means you can have access to the beautiful cover art, and the incredible experience of renascence, on launch day!

For we will be ancestors one day and this renascence is our legacy.

Taína is a Baltimore-based Higuaygua Taíno writer, on a mission to write the Taíno culture into existence the same way the colonizers have attempted to erase it: one word, one Taíno at a time. Her essay “Killing Ty” appeared in Yellow Arrow Journal Vol. V, No. 1 RESILIENCE and was nominated for a 2021 Pushcart Prize. Find out more at TainaWrites.com and connect with her on Instagram @tainaconcurls or on Facebook @TainaWrites.

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Yellow Arrow Publishing is a nonprofit supporting women writers through publication and access to the literary arts. To learn more about publishing, volunteering, or donating, visit yellowarrowpublishing.com. Follow us on Facebook and Instagram to learn more about future publishing, event, and workshop opportunities. Publications are available at our bookstore, on Amazon, and from most distributors.

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Yellow Arrow Journal Submissions are Now Open!

Yellow Arrow Publishing is excited to announce that submissions for our next issue of Yellow Arrow Journal, Vol. VI, No.1 (spring 2021) are open March 1–31 addressing the topic of Cultural Resurrections: the act of bringing a culture back from extinction or near extinction.

For too long history has been written by victors, resulting in a narrative absent of the tales of colonized cultures. If by ink and paper an entire people can be erased, then by ink and paper they can be resurrected. This issue’s theme will be:

Renascence

reviving something that was once dormant

How does your culture shape your personal identity? What part of your culture has been lost, or nearly lost? How was it lost? Why?
How have cultural absences affected your life? Strengthened it? Made it more difficult? What do you wish you had learned in school about your cultural identity?
What parts of your personal identity have been awakened/reawakened by your cultural identity? How?

Share the lost stories of your culture, write your histories back into existence. EMERGE.

Yellow Arrow Journal is looking for creative nonfiction, poetry, and cover art submissions by writers/artists that identify as women, on the theme of Renascence. Submissions can be in any language as long as an English translation accompanies it. For more information regarding journal submission guidelines, please visit yellowarrowpublishing.com/submissions. Please read our guidelines carefully before submitting. To learn more about our editorial views and how important your voice is in your story, read About the Journal. This issue will be released in May 2021.

We would also like to welcome our first guest editor for Yellow Arrow Journal: Taína, a proud Higuayagua Taíno writer on a mission to reclaim her indigenous Taíno culture and write her people back into existence with the same tools colonizers used to erase them. Taína was one of our incredible Yellow Arrow Journal RESILIENCE writers as well as one of our 2021 Pushcart Prize nominees. Connect with her at tainawrites.com or on Instagram @tainaconcurls. You can also learn more about Taína from her recent Yellow Arrow blog post on rewriting traditions.

The journal is just one of many ways that Yellow Arrow Publishing works to support and inspire women through publication and access to the literary arts. Since its founding in 2016, Yellow Arrow has worked tirelessly to make an impact on the local and global community by hosting literary events and publishing writers that identify as women. Yellow Arrow proudly represents the voices of women from around the globe. Creating diversity in the literary world and providing a safe space is deeply important. Every writer has a story to tell, every story is worth telling.

You can be a part of this mission and amazing experience by submitting to Yellow Arrow Journal, joining our virtual poetry workshop, volunteering, and/or donating today. Follow us on Facebook and Instagram to learn more about future publishing and workshop opportunities. Publications are available at our bookstore, on Amazon, or from most distributors.

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Rewriting Tradition

Yellow Arrow Publishing is excited to announce our first guest editor for Yellow Arrow Journal, Taína, who will be overseeing the creation of our Vol. VI, No. I issue on cultural resurrections. Taína is a proud Higuayagua Taíno writer on a mission to reclaim her indigenous Taíno culture and write her people back into existence with the same tools colonizers used to erase them. Connect with her at www.tainawrites.com or on Instagram @tainaconcurls.

Please follow us on Facebook and Instagram for the theme announcement at the end of this month. Below, you can read Taína’s perspectives on rewriting traditions.

By Taína

Originally written November 2020, updated February 2021

Our first Thanksgiving in our new home was in 2019, down the block from my brother. My family of four’s geographical shift tipped the family balance 5:2 in Baltimore’s favor, beginning what we thought would be a new tradition of having my parents over for Thanksgiving at our house. This year (2020) only proved us partly wrong.

For most of us, 2020 has been downright dystopic. A pandemic has taken over 400,000 Americans and has rewritten every aspect of life down to our most time-honored traditions. Bridal gowns are now designed with coordinating face masks. Birthday songs are sung through Zoom. Hugging now expresses a deeper intimacy, while avoidance has become a love language. Halloween was hollow and Thanksgiving thinner than ever, all to the tune of being gaslighted by those who insisted their right to celebrate supersedes life itself.

If I’m being honest, I’ve never really liked Thanksgiving. It’s always been more of a day built on resentment than gratitude. As a child, before I knew the Pilgrim and Indian story was a fabrication, I resented the long boring day of tortuous aromas that would fill me up long before they were tasted, so I could never eat as much as I wanted. As a teenager, I resented Mount Saint Dishmore waiting to be handwashed after the meal. These resentments were only aggravated when I discovered the first Thanksgiving was really a post-victory celebration of the massacre of 700 Pequots right in the middle of their Green Corn Festival. The year I found out about how Lincoln decreed the first official Thanksgiving should be scheduled one month to the day before the anniversary of the hanging of 38 Dakota warriors—the largest one-day mass execution in American history, I skipped it altogether.

I chose a man whose indifference toward the day was so synchronous with mine, he agreed to get married on Thanksgiving. We intended to rebrand it all together and secure a perpetual excused absence from having to celebrate at all, though we missed the fine print that said the pass didn’t apply to young children missing their parents on a day most people spend with their families.

As a person who has experienced the extreme erasure of being forced in school to memorize the names of the ships, but never once being taught the name of the people those ships carried into slavery (except that Columbus accidentally called them “Indians” and it stuck), despite being named after those people, I couldn’t understand why my family wanted to celebrate Thanksgiving at all. Along with the knowledge that Indigenous people don’t celebrate anything with gluttony and food waste, let alone following it up with a hunger game of shopping on Black Friday, I have no shortage of reasons to despise this day. So the irony was not lost on me, when last year, after a lifetime of resisting and resenting this day, the torch was passed on, and to me—the most unlikely Thanksgiving host in our family.

My reaction was equally ironic. I was just as surprised as anyone else to discover myself researching how to fold cloth napkins into pumpkin shapes and cooking multiple dishes, but the realization that the days of default gathering at my childhood home were over, made me eager to impress my parents. Yes, I wanted to reassure them we would thrive here, so close to my brother, in our new city, but it was more than that. I wanted to let them see that they had shown me how to keep the torch lit.

I found myself wishing my grandmother could see her daughter relaxing with mulled wine, instead of her usual solo marathon of cooking, while her children and grandchildren collaborated to serve her. I imagined the room filling with my ancestors. I could almost hear the generations of grandmothers proudly boasting to one another, “She gets that from me.” My brother, by far the most superior meat smith in the family, made the Thanksgiving turkey and the pernil; my mother brought her arroz con gandules all the way from New Jersey. There was stuffing and cranberry sauce, potatoes, and desserts. I’d even incorporated an Indigenous dish. I couldn’t get over how proud my ancestors must have felt watching us, and all at once, realization struck. The story they might have told us about this day was a lie, but all of the sufferings my ancestors endured was the origin story of the meal we were sharing. Just by gathering, we were writing the sequel. The one where the Indigenous return and thrive.

My 2020 table has not escaped estrangement. My parents are too high risk to travel, especially as out-of-state visitors. Still, I found myself surprisingly more grateful than I’ve ever been before. Despite the year’s trials, the torch is still burning and our story continues.

I am grateful that the empty spaces at my table are by choice and not by tragedy. My parents have already received the first dose of the vaccine, and I am grateful for the advancements in medical science without which we would be experiencing devastation at bubonic proportions. I am so excited by the promise of what reunions will feel like after such long separations, that the quiet winter holiday celebrations felt more precious than any of their predecessors.

I am grateful for the voices of the Indigenous who recently made themselves heard more loudly than ever. This next Congress will see more Native representatives than ever before in history, and there has even been an Indigenous appointment to our new Presidential Cabinet.

Most of all, I’m grateful to share this story in this space, because as a Taíno woman, I wasn’t even expected to exist, let alone write about it.

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Kapua Iao 1/19/21 Kapua Iao 1/19/21

An Expedition into the Nature of Our Hearts

Read Siobhan McKenna’s book review of World of Wonders: In Praise of Fireflies, Whale Sharks, and Other Astonishments by Aimee Nezhukumatathil, published in Yellow Arrow Journal’s Vol. V, No. 3 (Re)Formation issue (fall 2020). Information about where to find World of Wonders and (Re)Formation is below.

Catalpa trees or catalpa speciosa can grow to be almost 60 ft tall, have “foot-long leaves,” and “can give two brown girls in western Kansas a green umbrella from the sun.” So begins Aimee Nezhukumatathil in the first essay of World of Wonders: In Praise of Fireflies, Whale Sharks, and Other Astonishments. This book of 28 lyrical essays weaves together fascinating tidbits about species in our natural world with Nezhukumatathil’s own journey of finding self-acceptance and the meaning of living in a country where being ‘other’ must be navigated on a daily basis. Through the essays, characteristics found within nature reflect Nezhukumatathil’s own qualities as she moves through everyday life.

In her included essays—most titled after a natural wonder and its scientific name—Nezhukumatathil acts as the narrator of a National Geographic documentary. As our guide, she begins in the landscape of her youth where she realized that growing up with a Filipina mother and Indian father set her apart from other children and would color nearly every aspect of her life in the years to come. From there, she whisks the reader from the sweet fields of love as she knew her husband was the one when he “didn’t blanch” at her adoration for the corpse flower (whose scent is reminiscent of “a used diaper pail left out in the late August sun” (70)) to the depths of motherhood where in swimming with a whale shark, she realized that she was “unprepared to submit [herself] so completely to nature” (89) with the implications of the worst occurring: a motherless son.

Nezhukumatathil, an author of four other collections of poetry, spellbinds the reader with her sensory imagery. She compares the petals of a touch-me-not to something that “look[s] as if someone crossed a My Little Pony doll with a tiny firework” (25) and envelops the reader in the smell of a monsoon: like the “wind off the wings of an ecstatic teeny bat” mixed with “banana leaves drooping low,” and “clouds whirring so fast across the sky” (58–59). In fact, every essay is saturated in lush prose that transports the reader alongside Nezhukumatathil as she is slowly sipping a dragon fruit cocktail in “Mississippi when the air outside is like a napping dragon’s exhalations” (115).

But the beauty found in her lyricism does not detract from the gravitas of the messages that underlie her essays. As a daughter of immigrant parents, Nezhukumatathil calls us to be better to one another when faced with diversity and to not succumb to tropes where racism can be chalked up as a sign of older times or the ignorance of children.

In her essay “Monodon monoceros,” she speaks of channeling the narwhal’s preference for swimming through “chunky ice rather than open seas” (35–36) when a boy on her school bus “flipped his eyelids inside out” (38) after she explained to him that her mom was in fact Filipino and not Chinese. And in “Ambystoma mexicanum,” she presents that remembering the smile of an axolotl (thin and tough) “can help you smile as an adult even if someone on your tenure committee puts his palms together as if in prayer every time he sees you off-campus, and does a quick, short bow, and calls out, Namaste!” (45) despite telling him repeatedly that she’s Methodist. Nezhukumatathil demands that we alter what we teach our children about those different from ourselves and how we internalize these differences as adults. By illustrating these cringeworthy and far too common microaggressions, she cries for us to be curious, not assumptive about the questions to which we do not know the answers.

Yet, instead of seeking pity, Nezhukumatathil burns with a firm resolve to find home wherever her feet seep into the soil by calling on the natural world around her. Similar to a red-spotted newt, which takes time “wandering the forest floor before it decides which pond to call home” (139), Nezhukumatathil moved from places such as Arizona, Iowa, and Western New York, before settling in Mississippi with her husband. And although her move from Western New York was precipitated after she became weary “of acquaintances at the post office asking about ‘my people,’” she wonders what would have happened if she saw a red-spotted newt in the midst of a bleak New York winter “skittering under the surface of the ice” (142) as they often do. Like the perseverant newt, Nezhukumatathil thinks she might have stayed, calling to mind that “all this time, my immigrant parents had been preparing me to find solace in multiple terrains and hoping to create a feeling of home wherever I needed to be in this country” (143).

Nezhukumatathil’s disposition toward finding goodness in the face of adversity and using the natural world as a guiding light is what ultimately defines her work and seems especially timely in light of our country’s current social and ecological climate. To me, Nezhukumatathil’s essays serve as a call to action as unmatched wildfires continue to ravage the west coast and racial discrimination is brought to the front of a long-overdue national conversation. Her skillful synthesis of these intense topics into short digestible anecdotes—while still channeling hope—is the precise writing we need right now for us to feel stirred to work toward the daunting tasks of preserving our earth and dismantling racial injustice in our country.

As the compilation winds down, Nezhukumatathil introduces the reader to a Casuarius casuarius or southern cassowary. These flightless birds are native to New Guinea and Australia and are relied upon to preserve biodiversity as a keystone species. Most interestingly, Nezhukumatathil teaches us, in her colorful, rhythmic prose, cassowaries have a call that can’t be heard by humans, but only felt—a “rumble” (148) deep in our bones. She ponders on this feeling: “suppose that boom shaking in our body can be a physical reminder that we are all connected” (149). This musing echoes again and again as the reader encounters each creature and sees a reflection of themselves staring back. Because, Nezhukumatathil warns, in order to reform how we commune with human beings—nature—we must remember that all that is precious in our world will be lost if we do not slow down and feel the vibrations of the earth; feel the beat of each other’s hearts.

Paperback and pdf copies of (Re)Formation are available in the Yellow Arrow bookstore or through most online bookstores. Book of Wonders was published by Milkweed Editions (2020; 184 pages). For more information, visit milkweed.org/book/world-of-wonders.

Siobhan McKenna is a middle child and a lover of bike-packing and practicing yoga. She enjoys writing essays, poetry, and long-winded letters to friends. For the past nine years Siobhan has lived in the charming city of Baltimore, but beginning in the spring she will start work as an ICU travel nurse—moving to a different city every three months to work, write, and explore all that this crazy, broken, and beautiful country holds. You can follow her on Instagram @sio_han.

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Kapua Iao 11/19/20 Kapua Iao 11/19/20

Shaping and Reshaping: Yellow Arrow Journal's (Re)Formation

“I think of the trees and how they simply let go . . .” From The Journals of May Sarton: Volume One: Journal of a Solitude, Plant Drawing Deep, and Recovering by May Sarton

Yellow Arrow Publishing, like many others, has had to adapt and reform during the current, tumultuous times we are living in. This (re)formation has been a challenge as well as a pleasure, and our contributing authors are prepared to share their experiences of formation and change with the world. The release of Yellow Arrow Journal’s (Re)Formation issue, Vol. V, No. 3 (fall 2020), is an opportunity for Yellow Arrow, the included authors, and all our readers to come to terms with the state of the world along with the state of ourselves. The theme (Re)Formation holds a certain duality that sets this issue apart from previous journals. Through varying takes on formation as well as reformation, contributors express the ways they have been formed and reformed over time. The era we are living through renders this theme especially pertinent and we at Yellow Arrow hope you will find some peace within this issue from the comfort of your own HOME.

Yellow Arrow Journal continues to support and inspire women in the literary arts by featuring poetry, creative nonfiction, book reviews, and cover art from any and all who identify as women. This issue of the journal serves as a collection of thoughts upon the way identity is shaped and perhaps reshaped throughout the hardships and joys of life. And by including synonyms for formation and reformation at the end of each piece, Yellow Arrow Journal authors are able to convey a sense of what these terms mean to them and just how much duality this theme holds in and of itself. Through stories of tragedy, hope, and soul-searching, we at Yellow Arrow hope this issue will inspire you to continue to evolve and to never stop pushing forward.

Paperback and PDF versions of (Re)Formation are now available at the Yellow Arrow store. You can also search for Yellow Arrow Journal or Yellow Arrow Publishing on any e-book or anywhere you purchase books. We would also like to invite everyone to our prerecorded A Reformative (Re)Formation Reading, which will be released on our YouTube Channel (and shared through Facebook and Instagram) November 25 at 6:00 p.m. The reading will feature several of our authors from this issue and will be hosted by our poetry editor, Ann Quinn.

Finally, if you would like to share any encouragement for our incredible staff or the (Re)Formation authors please do so through Facebook/Instagram or even in the video comments when the reading is released.

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Kapua Iao 9/1/20 Kapua Iao 9/1/20

Yellow Arrow Journal Submissions Now Open!

Yellow Arrow Publishing is excited to announce that submissions for our next issue, fall 2020 (Vol. V, No. 3) are now open September 1–30 on the theme:

(Re)Formation

Spending the time to create something—to give shape to a place, a person, yourself, or an idea—is a significant step in life. Then imagine needing to reform it, make an improvement.

What does it take to shape or form something? Ourselves? How do we sustain what we form? Why is it meaningful?

How do we know when reformation is necessary? Why is it necessary sometimes? What can we gain through such a transformation?

Can a personal (re)formation become a community act? How? Why might this be necessary at times?

For more information regarding all journal submission guidelines, please visit yellowarrowpublishing.com/submissions. Please note that our guidelines have recently changed; read them carefully before submitting. To learn more about our editorial views and how important your voice is in your story, read About the Journal. Every writer has a story to tell and every story is worth telling.

The journal is just one of many ways that Yellow Arrow Publishing works to support and inspire women through publication and access to the literary arts. Since its founding in 2016, Yellow Arrow has worked tirelessly to make an impact on the local and global community by hosting literary events and publishing writers that identify as women. Creating diversity in the literary world and providing a safe space is important to us. Yellow Arrow proudly showcases the voices of women from around the globe.

You can be a part of this mission and amazing experience by submitting to Yellow Arrow Journal, publishing full-length creative nonfiction and poetry chapbooks, joining our virtual workshops and events, volunteering, or donating today. Publications are available at our bookstore, on Amazon, or on any eReader. Click here for information about current and future changes to the Yellow Arrow family.

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